Kayy Ke the beauty of the world from outside my shell
Welcome to my world, get lost in it.
See Me
My name is Kendall Kurian and I have many desires when it comes to my life. I'll discuss those one by one, but now I'll explain who I am. I'm a goal oriented 20 year old whose biggest competitor is myself. Laziness and procrastination are 2 of my biggest flaws. I've put off many things due to worrying about what people would think whether it's outfits or scrapping an entire YouTube video. That's one reason this website is just now being shown to the world. You could definitely say I was handed the artistic gene and my brother was gifted with being able to master any sport he's tried. I think it makes sense since there's only 2 of us - siblings I mean. Our parents are pretty blessed with 2 kids who are alike and different in many ways. I love music, arts and crafts, and photography, and due to a battle with acne, skincare falls into all of that - but as I mentioned, those will be discussed later. For now, enjoy these details. My mind is a vast place that is full of ideas which seem to be the most alive at night. I try to keep my head space positive, but being 20 sometimes feels like the world is at your feet but out of touch. With that being said, I can't wait to keep you updated on the goals I've reached and the journey along the way.
Life Through My Lens
I've had an interest for photography for maybe 5 years I'd like to think, but honestly I can't remember when I realized I had a love for capturing moments. As I've learned more about myself and my confidence has blossomed, I've become more comfortable being in front of the camera. I still get anxious and worry about how I look when I'm the model or the YouTuber, but I put on a good show anyways. I've been saying I'd like to run my own photography business for a little over 3 years, but I haven't been acting on it. I know I have an idea, I'm just letting life choose what happens next. Until then, I'll keep improving my business plan(s). I do know that having the eye of a photographer, the beauty in everything is maximized. And it's a beautiful world to see...
Life On A Canvas
I've always been one to doodle flowers and hearts on my worksheets for as long as I remember, but that won't be the story behind this interest. When I was in middle school, I had a teacher who was the coolest dude I knew. Mr. McHugh was by far my favorite teacher and the only class I looked forward too everyday. He made art class challenging which was fun to some and annoying to others. I looked up (and still do) to Mr. McHugh for his understanding of souls and love for art. He made me realize it was more than paint brushes and stencils. He taught me to use my art as my way to express emotions with vulnerability... or just have fun making a mess. Later on, I was depressed and very insecure with myself due to bullying in the years of 8th grade and the first 3 years of high school. This led to me shutting down and shutting people out. It was to the point where I even decided to take online college courses my senior year and only took 2 classes at my high school just to avoid it completely. In this time, I strayed away from art and many other things I loved, but one day I was watching The Notebook sometime maybe my 11th grade year. The scene where Ally told her soon-to-be husband she didn't paint anymore struck me. Reason being she was making a reference to painting and her happiness and how it was gone. A few days after I digested that scene, I looked at all the art supplies getting dusty in my room and decided to "see if that talent is still there" or if it was ever there at all. I started with a simple black rose outline on Pinterest, then leveled up one by one to Exhale and See Me, and lastly led to a piece of 2 lions I now call Mother & Cub. I was so amazed that I found a picture and redrew it as new that I still find it shocking. I learned that art is what you think it is, not to compare my style to others, and to be open minded because the blueprint and the finished piece aren't always the same. I'm still learning how to put my mental images into action due to the fact that creating a realistic image (my style of art is realism) from the mind and transporting it to paper doesn't always work. You learn and grow as you go though. Mr. McHugh was careless of ignorance because he was so effortlessly himself and I will forever strive to be like that as an artist and a person.
Healing Cleanse
After a long battle with acne, cystic acne and acne scarring, I've tried over a hundred different things to improve my skin. I've dealt with bullies and all of their jokes. I've tried so much whether it's ProActiv, going make up free, or what I call "a skin care diet" throughout the past decade. I have yet to determine what all I will be putting under my SKINCARE tab, but I'm definitely including plentiful information I find helpful. I will give tips to improve skin, texture, scarring, etc. I will be TALKING THROUGH EXPERIENCE therefore my remedies and tips MAY NOT BENEFIT EVERYONE. Additionally, I'm excited to say my skincare business has been released and is available for purchase!! My business is Earth-Friendly and is based on mostly organic and natural ingredients. Go to my SKINCARE homepage to read valuable information that answers a few important questions. I'm also STILL a work in progress so no, my skin is not flawless. I hope you all enjoy whatever it is I come up with and I really pray I'm helpful to most. If you have any questions, comments or suggestions, I'm open to consider them but keep it POSITIVE!
On The Go
This is another work in progress but seriously, who doesn't want to travel? I can't wait to experience more cities, but my favorite is traveling any coastline. The beach and the ocean have a connection to my soul. You'll be able to tell that I'm in love with Florida thanks to this page. I've always been down for spontaneous store trips and late night beach trips so I can only imagine where that trait will take me one day. On the TRAVEL page, I'll keep y'all updated with my favorite places I've been too whether it's Zoo Atlanta or Miami, FL. I'll mention places I think are beautiful from pictures I've seen and places on my bucket list. I'll also touch base on situations in different places that I feel are an issue and need to be discussed. This section will hold a range of broad topics around the world and what roles the places I post have to do with my life.
Decisions, Decisions.
But above it all, I'm a sophomore in college.
Yes, I will be maintaining this website and running multiple businesses and HOPEFULLY A REAL JOB while striving towards my Bachelor's Degree. With this being said, be patient with me. I'm still figuring myself out. Being a biology major is the hardest thing I've done next to pulling myself out of depression but I'm trying my best to stay above water. There's been many times I've wanted to throw in the towel due to required classes that I can't seem to grasp and I've even spent nights lying awake wondering if this is even what I want to do with my life... "is it worth it like they say?" But this is what everyone goes through in college - right? Because if not, this may be a sign I need to change course in life. All jokes aside, my plan is to graduate with my Bachelor's Degree in Biological Sciences with a concentration in Coastal Ecology and attend vet school for 1-3 years to acquire my Doctorate of Veterinary Medicine. But honestly, I'm starting to second guess if I'll even make it that far. I feel very discouraged by people with the same major who seem so much more excited about taking Chemistry II than me, or the ones who already have internships with vet clinics, or the ones who have passed College Algebra 1 with a 92 their first try. I've always had an idea of what I wanted to do with my life involving animals. My answer to the question about growing up has been a Vet for as far as I remember. For years, I was stuck between a Zoologist, Marine Biologist, Veterinarian- anything along those lines. Remember the thing I said earlier about the beach and the ocean? That was kinda the deal breaker. I didn't come up with a plan until about 10th grade and the best way to sum up my choice of career is to watch the movies Dolphin Tale and Dolphin Tale 2. After watching those, I began my research on college majors, schools, degrees, anything needed to become what I dreamed of being. Thanks to Charles Martin Smith, the director, I finally nailed down WHAT EXACTLY I WANTED TO BE - a Marine Veterinarian. Thanks to Steve Irwin, THE LEGEND, my mission has always been about saving animals and making the world a better place with all of my abilities. My plan is/was to have those degrees and move to Florida - of course. Then I'll successfully start my career at a local marine hospital or an aquarium such as Clearwater Marine Aquarium that both shows the animals to the world while doing the jobs of animal hospitals. That's my dream.. but life has made me wonder and wander so far to thinking this will forever remain a dream, an unobtainable goal.